I continued to think about the boundary of dress or dress code. Where is the farthest place from the bedroom you can wear your pyjamas? Who you can meet them in person in pyjamas? Who you can video chat with in pyjamas?
Pyjamas would be the type of home-wear which are less associated with formal, and build up the territory of comfort and self-ness when we are indoors and with ourselves. Does the viewer’s gender affect the appropriateness in pyjamas? Does the environment or regional culture affect the feeling of being in pyjamas?
Think, and wear pyjamas out, how far you can go?
I am recently working on documenting. Documenting in any sorts, making the document. One reason would be I seldom looked at myself before, always try to fit in the puzzle of the majority while knowing I would always have a different response, thoughts and way of practicing. I gave up my individuality, tried to be invisible, to be normal, to not be noticed, hence I gave up thinking, making my own thoughts, making an argument, displaying my “style”.
What defines a designer’s style? Is it her touch? Is it her method of approach, or her way of thinking?
Designers are selling themselves, their work is a part of their embodiment, their thoughts explain who they are, how they live and what they believe.
Designers are makers, to design is to sell oneself, maybe in sliced pieces.
So far, I managed to document my handwriting in English, maybe Chinese and Japanese later, in pen, markers and a hollow style, making them into usable typing font, (The one I am using now, feel very strange to see my own handwriting coming out not on paper but on screen, and also lack a bit of accidental and messy element in it.)(the font is not loaded on the website) I might continue to document or create handwritings, to make this handwriting fitting more situations and expose more facets of me.
I am also writing, documenting the programme process, thoughts, and progress in this Term 1 Log, (like what my friends who study engineering to work on their manufacture log book) I haven’t to documenting my life or thoughts so closely and with these much details since I thought what I think was unimportant. The logbook idea comes from my Techou habit, a way to organise agenda, drop down little notes and manage certain aspects of life (i.e. weight tracking !!!, habit tracking etc.). When looking back into a 2017 Techou, I feel so surprised when picking up the small fragmented memories I have almost forget, I see some tiny and insignificant things made me happy or sad, they are still there, sleeping in the Muji A6 notebook.
I also write in Chinese, but mostly recording my dreams and working on fictions. As a multilingual user, I find I always switch to a certain language when doing certain things. When I draw manga, I come out with Japanese captions; when I write stories, I think in Chinese; when I work on academic writing, I can only come out with English phrases. These may due to the different situation, memories and experiences associated with the different language, for example, this module is delivered in English, so I think in English and log them in English. I am still discovering the conditions for me to use them.
Another reason to document is that, my grandma has got Alzheimer’s and has been becoming not her as time pasts. Are memories construct who we are? If I leave all my recorded memory, do I live in another form? Every time people read about my memories, they encountered my life, hence I am lived again and again?
I also noticed the recent trending virtual idols (VTubers) which are popular around the younger generation across the world. What constructs the identity of the VTuber, her voice, her appearance (which basically a live2d moving image or a still illustration), the random thoughts she generates? How far and how close is their virtual identity close to the people who are casting them? Is the “insider” really important as many VTubers tend to have more than one people to do the casting?
Besides the handwriting, I also recorded my voice and turned them into a voice file which can be used to sing using the software Utau. Utau seems outdated since now you can sing using the VTuber’s skin and the similar virtual singers programmes such as Hatsune Miku seems less popular in today’s society with much more choice in entertaining and making music.
Through constantly input certain parts of me into this MacBook, I feel a part of me, or another me has become alive in the laptop, she can write, she can now sing and speak Japanese, will there be an artificial intelligence version of me replace my trace?
Document, and reach out. What I can do next? Making more songs and having an album? Posting this log onto a blog to gain readers? Sell my products (stickers, paintings, skills and even time) on Etsy?
Document, make, and sell self. In any means.
Some other ideas: documenting life (purchasing list, spending list, item log, take away documentation. . .)
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